I'm so tired of patience. Anyone who has spent even the least amount of time around me in the last 6 months knows that I have pretty much lost all of the patience I ever had. I have lost my tolerance and ability to actually give a damn about whiny people. I've also lost a lot of my patience with men. And yet, all at the same time, I've become considerably more forgiving. Basically, I've stopped caring. If you don't care, you don't have to have a reason to lose your patience. And if you don't care, you don't have to make up excuses when a boy doesn't call/write/im, etc. Not caring also means not losing your temper, and not having to forgive people cause even though they are annoying, it doesn't mean anything.
Not caring is the best thing going in my life.
But then there's those little tip of the iceberg things.
A clueless co-worker who keeps telling you how to do your job.
Alonzo falling off the face of the earth with absolutely no warning.
Alec's inability to commit to the smallest thing.
People who think you actually care and have feelings for them, when really, you don't care a freaking flying fig about them.
I hate confrontation more than anything else in this world. I really really do. I hate confrontations even more than I hate snakes. And that is saying something. So when you have a co-worker who thinks everything requires a confrontation, how do you handle it? I asked other people, and their response was "just argue with her. It's what she wants." I hate arguing with people though!
And how do you explain to someone that while they are giving me way too much credit for caring about their feelings? Guess what? I really really don't! I know. I'm awful, I'm terrible. But I've got enough going on without having to also worry about all your stupid little emotional needs today.
And how much patience do you have to have with a guy? How long do you have to wait and wonder why they stopped calling? And how long do you have to wait for them to make a decision???
All this not caring is wearing me out!
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