Friday, September 12, 2008

Waiting for a Light at the End of This Painfully Long Tunnel

It was really great to get away from town and my troubles and see my family for the weekend. But unfortunately I came home and reality it hard again. First it was a major problem with my bank. And then it was finding out more about why I will most likely not qualify for unemployment insurance. The root of both problems continues to be my former employer Tricia McGarry. (yes, I am back to using her name.) When you file for unemployment, they call and verify your story with your former employer. I have not been told what it is she said about me, but apparently our stories don't mesh. And whatever it is she did say (which is obviously not the truth) is why I don't qualify for UI. You have no idea what a huge blow this is for me. First she ripped me off a month of wages, and now she's making it so I can't get what little money unemployment was going to give me. And the bank? They have been fantastic and very helpful throughout this ordeal. But today they finally had to tell me they can't help me anymore. It was been over 45 days and they want the money (from Tricia's bounced check) back. I don't have a job, I've used up my savings, and now I don't have unemployment coming either. To say this situation sucks is a massive understatement.
I've been in tough situations before. I've been frustrated before. But this is an all new low for me. Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. I'm so tired. And so incredibly frustrated. I feel like I have exhausted every possible resource, favor, and possibility given to me.
One good friend asked me tonight what I am going to do, if all of my options continue to fall through. And the thing is, I don't know. I really don't know what I can do anymore. I hate that someone else had/has this sort of ability to ruin my life. And I hate that I wasn't better prepared for a disaster like this.
There are good things happening to help me in the longer term, big picture. But right now its the immediate needs that are killing me. I've had several phone interviews this week, and I'm excited about many of them. Who knows what the future is about to hold? More months of this financial misery and anger? Or is an answer right around the corner? How much longer will this go on? And will every day of it be like this?


  1. I'm sorry sweetie.
    My UE just ran out... and no one willing to pay a decent wage is hiring. I too am at the end of my rope.

    Hang in there.

  2. I'm sorry to hear. Remember, this lying woman didn't ruin your life. If worse came to worse, there'd always be the church helping you out and it would be temporary. I've been there myself and things worked out.


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