Some people like to pretend they don't have crazies. I don't believe them. I say you should embrace your inner crazy and have fun with it. However, I have so many crazies, that I do keep a lot of it in. You should be a little scared that the crazies you do see in me are only the crazies I let you see. There's plenty o' crazies on the inside still.
I'm on a diet right now. A no fun, no thrills, this had better work for me if I'm going to put up with all this crap, diet. And basically, I'm having to put all my mental energy into not breaking my diet. Which meant today I had to allow my crazies to come out. My mental energy cannot keep my crazies in and also not eat chocolate. It just doesn't work that way.
So today was let Erin be Erin day, or Neurotic Me day, or if I feel like sounding poetic "Unbridled McBride Day." I let my neurotic side hang out.
(What I sometimes look like when letting it all hang out.)I over analyzed boys. Okay, well, just the one boy. It was fun. I read way too much into a 2 sentence email (something I normally forbid myself to do). I talked to him on the phone, then called my girlfriends to nitpick everything he said. And then decided in the end that he likes me. It was the best explanation for his funny actions. Normally my slightly reined in neurosis tells me he doesn't like me. I may like the neurotic side better.
And then, when not working, I looked at purses online. And shoes. And dresses. And then more purses. This was an important part of the letting the neurotic side run free. My obsession with purses knows no end.
Tomorrow I will return to Reined In Me. I will go see "He's Just Not That Into You" to remind myself of reality. And then I'll look at my budget and realize that no matter how much I justify it, I cannot afford a $550 purse.
And then on Friday I will allow myself to cheat on this diet. The lack of cheeseburgers alone is killing me!!